so this is how it is like, to wake up in the morning to rawrs and warmy fuzzy smiles, to mean 'i love you' sincerely and truly, to think of the other person all the time knowing she is too, to feel insecure and distrustful mutually simply because we dont ever ever want to lose each other, to feel peaceful and sure of everything in equal measure. i guess we are really on to something here? this is the laugh after each quarrel relationship that i thought was only an ideal.

anyways i have been spending alot of money on food. like seriously, i havent bought any consumer thing in a while, i have just been concerned with feeding myself. im looking forward to going back, its scary how its only 1 and a half weeks left actually. previously i would have been counting down the days but i guess since amanda the days really sweep by scarily fast, and i dont really think of going back that much. looking forward to the family and the food, the sun and the friends =) the car of course. my gosh you have no idea how addictive mobility is, especially when laced with a sense of power from the car.

everytime i get on youtube (which is increasingly, in amanda's room) i always look for damien rice and eric clapton stuff, now to be honest i would kill to have watched eric clapton at the recording of the mtv unplugged album. sigh and i dont think i'll be able to catch the glastonbury festival, i felt pessimistic enough to not even register. anyways im looking forward to the upcoming arcade fire album. i should try to wean amanda off her RnB diet onto pretensious arty farty indie and related emo music. hahaha