ive been gaining weight ever since i and amanda went to paris.. and although my face is getting fuller and she thinks its unbearably cute, i dont feel that good anymore, less confident of turning up the zsa zsa zsu. anyways i slept loads today and have been trying to sleep more because there's still alot of fatigue in my bones and im still sick ever since ive landed, which is atrociously long ago.

anyways hmmm a week passed since ive touched down, and i havent done much work. like maybe half a term of macroeconomics? doing stuff like phuture on wed (i think both of us dont want to club for very very long), or checking out city space and new asia bar at swissotel.. hanging with her family, going out with her dad, gorging together on half a lana cake, picking my sister from school, going out for simple meals with my own family, and very very occasionally catching up with friends. well some ppl might think the priorities are skewed, but well spending everyday with her from marriage until 80 is not enough, ill like to start NOW and start like from the past before. =((

anyways we are getting unbearably sick of singapore. the weather is terrible, the food is not really inspiring, and i guess london just holds much more for us as a couple since we are used to life there together alone in each other's company. anyways i cant wait to go back. and i probably will mug my ass off there especially when she is going for her internship thing. anyways we both really gotta psyche up lah. the stress is beginning to hit me. ive been driving quite a bit.. kinda raw sometimes but sometimes it gets a bit slick. driving back at night from amanda's place is bad though, its normally 1 plus am and im dead tired from the day and often lose concentration. she's probably already terribly worried. okay lets see week ahead. my grandma adores me and im going over for braised fatty pork bun dinner tml =). i cant wait to chill with her at her house in front of the tv or something. i really really like that. there's tuesday lunch i think with her dad again, wednesday we want to go to morton's, and friday there's iggy's. after that its perilously close to going home already. wah i realised i typed home. when i meant london. somewhat confused here i guess.

there's a big hooha about civil servant salaries, and i disagree with both sides to some extent. firstly that civil servants should not raise their salaries, that pay should be less for the altruistic service you are performing for society. i think that effect is overstated and this is the 'football fans will play for free' effect. you pay less and you get trash - the overall harm is much worse. on the other hand i think examining pay structures for staff from 30 years old onwards is a bit too late. you benefit best by retaining ppl early, and if you only give proper pay to those who have stayed for a while you filter alot of good potential candidates who would leave the service because of impatience.