"we might make love, in some sacred place
the look on your face is delicate"

"i just want you to know that i'm really fucking in love with you and it sucks like shit cos i cant seem to do anything anymore except to think about you 24/7 and its pissing me off because im losing control of my own life and i hate it like fuck but at the same time i love you so much and i cant imagine life without you."

amanda got the morgan stanley "whole week tea session" thing so she'll be coming back earlier during the easter holidays. on the basis of the way i feel just half a day away from her i dread the week and a half we'll be away from each other. its not just a can't live with each other kind of desperation at times, its also a permanent dull ache. im happy we're together, but separation of any sort brings back dull grey days and moods. it didnt help that it rained terribly today. im slowly getting fat due to constant meals and chocolates and what nots. i was looking at my face today in the gym and wah its getting a bit fuller. well at least amanda likes it.
ok i can juggle both studies and a serious relationship. i have never been so serious before. so im a bit worried. but nvm. =)) anyways i was in the gym and was watching ice figure skating and suddenly had the strong urge to go and try with amanda. okkkk im trying very hard to restrain the mush now.im beginning to understand the hooha about wanting to go everywhere and do everything with the person. its just simply that if you think about the person all the time, how could it be possible to do anything away from her? when i went to barcelona with nicola i was thinking of you all the time, every second and it will be so right to go with you properly. =)

bought a pair of light blue chinos shorts for summer weather, hopefully can post photos of me in it soon!